She likes to spend hours,
Painting her face,
Fixing her hair,
Dressing in lace;
That no one will see,
As she's just a picture,
A porcelain doll,
A permanent fixture;
Those pretty little dresses,
And that coy little smile,
Under those innocent eyes,
You're transfixed for a while;
As she moves with the music,
You're entranced by her voice,
She goes to powder her nose,
With the powder of choice;
Through the ecstasy thrills,
She sips her drink with a straw,
Soft-lipped and sensuous,
You're waiting for more;
In black suede heels,
She holds herself steady,
And admirable sentiment,
To what she's taken already;
That's when you
High Time - Playing With Words by Redscream, literature
Literature
High Time - Playing With Words
Sat up here running on my high time
Watched the world move with mine
Laughing at clouds, couldn't make a rhyme,
Time;
To fall,
Back again.
Agitated, elaborated;
Conjugated...
Verbs?
"What did you say?"
S-P-A-C-E O-U-T
Swirling...
Colours; shaking,
Hands; fading,
Breath; racing,
Heart;
"STOP!"
Catch it,
Breathe...
S l o w d
o
w
n
Free fall,
Exhilirating, adrenaline,
Building;
p
U
Let's get to,
The point
Of expansion,
Keep on going; out
The window,
Is shut...
"Can't let them in...
Watching me... they're watching,
Make them go... AWAY"
Screaming,
P
Branding my nicotine fingers,
Drawing the last breath of formaldehyde,
Preserving me another moment,
As I crush into the tray
Of other white maggots,
Blackened by fire
Until ashes are all that remains,
Breeding a new kind of disease
A slip of bright paper,
Placed on the tongue,
A sip of clear fire,
From its glass cradle,
Sinking in a haze of grey,
Tearing my necrotic body
From the inside,
Snapping apart the fibres,
Biting, breaking the grace of life,
Feeding my neurotic mind,
Over and over,
Draining into me; poison,
Encapsulating thoughts,
Lost in the dragging days,
Drifting through conciousness,
Adrenaline crawls,
In
This hummingbird kiss of suicide,
A fleeting glimpse of the other side,
Freezing ghosts stealing pride,
Never wishing I hadn't tried.
Endless whispers in my ear,
Breeding mistrust and fear,
Tricked to keep a tool so near,
Mind lost body which is here?
Chain links rust but never yield,
My mind is the weapon that I wield,
Caught fast my layers are peeled,
Slowly, painfully all is revealed.
Of punishing thoughts that choke,
Trying to fix a mind that broke,
Drowning in this haze I soak,
Wrapped so tightly in a velvet cloak.
Me and you alone can see,
I'm to blame for this tragedy,
I'm asking you to set me free,
From this endless
This scarlet hand
With the money inside
As you walk out of the store
Like you have nothing to hide.
This scarlet hand
Pushes the needle through skin
Losing all thought
As the drug slowly slips in.
This scarlet hand
Holding the pill
Meant to make you happy
But instead you want to kill.
This scarlet hand
Tips the bottle once more
Finally it's empty
and you pass out on the floor.
This scarlet hand
Draws the blade over the vein
You're so far from this world
You don't know pleasure from pain.
This scarlet hand
Is turning the wheel
Steering you off the road
So high that you can't feel.
This scarlet hand
Beating the boy
Kn
I'm so numb,
The pain of being,
Has cast me down,
No longer seeing,
How life used to be.
It's a deathly chilling,
Ice cold feeling,
I hate living,
I hate breathing.
You realise so little,
You misunderstand a lot,
You don't know how to help me,
When you don't know the pain I've got.
This dark and evil presence,
That seems to want me dead,
I can't control it,
I don't know what to do instead.
I hate this existence,
Selfish is what you said,
It annoys me that you think,
It's all inside my head.
I know that you worry,
I know that you care,
But how I really feel,
I'm not sure that you're aware.
You said it would get better,
Alone
I need to fight this on my own
I want to be alone
I know people out there,
Will always care,
But i want to be alone.
Solitude
thats what i seek
A time when i can think
i wish they would stay away from me
but they cant see
i want to be alone
Peace
to stop all conflict in my head
the thoughts pulling me apart
i want silence to free my mind within
before i let the others in
i want to be alone
Direction
i need to find a way to go
im lost upon this darkened road
i need a path to win this fight
i want the others out of sight
i want to be alone
Time
i need another chance
to work this out alright
im sorry for being selfish and unaware,
im sorry for acting as if i dont care.
im sorry for the way i behave,
im sorry for the anger that comes in a wave.
im sorry for the changes i me,
im sorry that i dont help, cant you see?
im sorry you hate what ive become,
im sorry you lost me when you thought you had won.
im sorry i pity myself so much,
im sorry that i cant be your crutch.
im sorry ive lost you, drifted away,
im sorry that i ruined the start of your day.
im sorry for the pain, the deceit and the lies,
im sorry that our understanding shrivels and dies.
im sorry but i know that the love is still there,
im sor
sweet innocence is what i knew
what parents said was always true
i didnt doubt the love was there
i missed the sorrow and despair
blissful ignorance is what i had
i thought my mum loved my dad
my mind has blanked the half-crazed rage
i only remember the better days
i never knew i lived a lie
until the love began to die
the arguments i heard at night
i didnt understand their fight
then the parting finally came
a man in a suit who asked my name
and made me choose between my mum and dad
my heart told me who but then i felt so bad
how could i love one more than the other?
i adore my dad but not as much as my mother
the answers t
sweet fire cuts like ice
across the skin
bleeds away the cares
bleeds away the sorrows
bleeds away the pain
like an old frend
it holds you up
so you dont care
so you dont feel
so you dont hurt
you are nothing
you are noone
you just bleed
you just live
you just exist.
nothing matters
there is no point
hate life
hate love
hate the world
Shivering from the cold,
In the frozen night,
Trembling from the exhaustion,
Of this mind-warped fight,
Quivering from the fear,
As dark replaces light,
Shaking from the pain
Chest squeezed tight,
Tremors from the effort,
Try as I might,
Quaking with sorrow,
As I feel the metal bite,
Still as I bleed,
And fade from sight.
Yesterday,
We claimed we would never part,
We told everything there was to tell,
An odd friendship perhaps,
But one I thought was true.
Yesterday,
I understood it all,
Now I know I never will,
The more you explain,
The more I realise - I don't know.
Yesterday,
We were the same,
But the common ground slipped away,
Now I know somethings changed,
An awkward rift has grown.
Yesterday,
You held me up, you cared,
You pulled me through,
Now you seem to have changed your mind,
You're pushing me away.
Yesterday,
Seems so long ago,
I don't know anything now,
Something has come between us,
What did I do to lose you?
Today,
You
The days were getting brighter,
the darkness fell away,
Little did I know,
That this was here to stay.
I thought I could control it,
I thought I knew the way
I still haven't solved this,
It's back again today
I tried to fight it,
I knew I could not win
There seems no other answer,
I have to give in.
The drops run warm and bright,
These cuts will never heal,
The scars will last for ever,
A nightmare thats all too real.
I never chose to live this life,
But this is what I am,
Something stirs in the dark,
Floating shadow,
A hand around my heart,
Frozen fingers,
Waiting for this to start,
Stalking closer,
Fired, a poison dart,
Sapping strength,
Coursing through my veins,
Spreading fear,
Numbing my senses,
Obscuring my thoughts,
Filling my head,
Ensnaring my mind,
Tearing me apart.
I don't know whats happening,
Lost myself to this,
Through the day it's haunting me - no escape at night,
Unknown phantom,
Confused in this world of black and white,
Myriad of emotion,
Wandering in a land of dark and light,
Winding road,
Misplaced happiness in
I know that you're walking on the edge,
In a place where black rain falls,
I've seen your many faces,
But I haven't seen them all,
As you walk along the cliff top,
Wait and rest awhile,
Think on those who know you,
As you climb the next stile,
Pause for breath in walking,
Look just stand and stare,
Gaze at all around you,
Is it true that you don't care?
Admire the world in passing,
The sea pinks all in bloom,
The puffins in their burrows,
Has this come to soon?
You come to the perfect place,
But I am already standing there,
Balancing on the brink,
The sea breeze in my hair,
Not a word you say to me,
Because all the words
Opaque Morning in London Town by DagmarMakara, literature
Literature
Opaque Morning in London Town
A cigarette or two with panthers in the room,
summer's gone but sunlight's due, soon you say-
tomorrow, or was that yesterday? Blades of grass
flicker with blue streaks and shimmer down;
a stream nearby, she says, follow the water,
the sound of the birds, past a stranger's grave;
a slave to circumstance. Never mind. We leave that place
as the sky just melts, our metaphorical belts come loose
and you remember that noose, makeshift, as they tend to be
one for you and one for me.
Somehow though, I've noticed change, the sun gets brighter,
lighter, the weight exchanged for ostrich feathers-
equal in force yet calming too, exactly
Shards of glass in the slithering verse,
to have and to hold, through better or worse
An end like yours, white dress and black hurse
The rain came down that night.
They put you away, for eight or nine days,
there by choice but 'here you must stay'
learn the rules quick and try not to sway,
win by avoiding the fight.
And as time went on I knew you were gone,
scratched in pencil, an image foregone,
a bird, some water and some crippled swan,
herein started the spite.
Despair, despair, don't dare to care,
amnestics, hypnotics, and fair is fair,
all the drugs in the world won't get you there,
the gas just won't ignite.
With a sad slow progression
At your funeral procession
You've graduated from life's lesson
And fallen to your transgressions
Your bedroom filled with your obsession
All your vanity's possessions - The mirrors hung from every wall
You said you saw yourself hung there too
The mirrors predicted this for you
You obsessed before the reflection's pew
And these candles, they grow dark
Like walks at midnight in the park
Where your dreams all fell apart
Fell and shattered your poor heart
But you can't finish if you don't start
You didn't see yourself in the dark - Someone else reflected back at you
I showed every scar I had to you
I ne
I was going to write something good today
(as if good was the best way to describe the results)
Yet somewhere in the eternity of 20 second moments between idea and page while i waited for the internet to load (15 adverts, 4 'errors loading' and 3.52 column inches of usable blank word box space) it slipped away
That is the idea did
Other things slipped too of course
The smile, the moment and the computer
(worringly close to the floor before I caught the thing)
The Concrete Floor
(not really, the floor being more of the large and rug filled variety,
But it sounds better doesnt it?
The hard surface compared with the relative luxury o
Down in one (and a penny for your thoughts),
These screams withheld, and reason gone to waste,
Blood flows forth, from a less auspicious fruit,
The vile to your lips once more, and don't forget
The taste of truth (when I Sleep it's dreaming with me),
Ticking clock, and a penny for our time ,
Words uncoil from a gin soaked mind,
Wiped away the memories, but can't forget the climb
These screams withheld (and reason gone to waste),
Excuses for not flying, as with tattered wings I fall,
Wind chips words, from a less than focused soul,
Flash silver to the vein again for those who will not
Call me weak (like you have the only
Merry Christmas - To You by element-of-use, literature
Literature
Merry Christmas - To You
Does it make it ok
To say everything you can
To let it all off your chest
To reach out
Grab the air
And hold on so tight
That when you start to scream
Muffled by the duvet
And when you punch
And when you hit
And when you harm
The ground beneath you
And the walls around you
The people beside you
And then the thoughts in your mind
That everything will be ok
Once everything has been done
Once everything has been said
And that the only thing keeping you back
Is that possible feeling of what-if?
And the chance it'll fall
And hit you in the face
You idiot
You stupid stupid person
What's the point in telling the truth
When
Within temptation
The limits of excess
Mine but not yours...
There's blood stains on the floor tonight
Fresh scars, memories unsealed
But I made myself a promise
Now is not the time to yield
Were you there the lights went out?
When the common blood still binds
Was it you?
I thought I saw you
Standing in the darkness as we read between the lines
Flash 100 days in seconds
When a second lasts a year
Flash past 100 days in seconds
And still I can see you there
These were my lies too
And now they are yours
There's no happy ending
Don't - bleed for the cause
Try closing your eyes
And look back just a day
We've watched others
Let me walk along the ridge
On the mountain of desire
Let me break free from this trap
Of despair
Let me nurture the golden flower
Of the love that I require
Let me take you by the hand
And show you that I care.
I will search for the flame
That is flickering in the dark
Catch the silent whisper
In the wind
If it will help me find the answer
To heal your saddened heart
I will kill a newborn child
And tell the Lord I've sinned
Consort with lesser beings
Scare the devil make him care,
Paint the black and shadow
With my blood
Cast away the covers
Bring it out into the air
Twist the pretty lies
and make them good.
Make be
Current Residence: At home Favourite genre of music: The many variations on Punk Operating System: XP Personal Quote: F**k life, f**k the universe, f**k everything (like rabbits) (school filters don't like me)
I hate it when you find,
Two lines;
A rhyming couplet,
Perhaps a whole stanza,
Or a paragraph;
When speaking of prose,
That slides from the tongue,
And is like music,
Perfection;
Yet it stands on it's own.
Every other word,
Detracts, desecrates,
Is folly;
Alongside such craftsmanship,
The page remains painfully blank,
No place can be found,
For perfection,
So, slowly, it is erased.
I can't find beauty in a land that's lost
I can't find peace in a world at war
How do I find happiness when the sky keeps crying?
How do I walk a path, I've never walked down before?
You are the beauty in a land that's lost
You are the peace in a world at war
You will make me smile until the sky stops crying
You walk down every path like you've walked down it before.
It's been a while since I updated this!
I've put a few pictures up, nothing amazing. Just taken on my phone when I went for a walk this morning.
Autumn is here already... the year has flown by. Looking forward to a bit of fun over half-term. Got homework to do aswell though. :hmm:
Things are going alright, but damn I'm cold right now. Think I'll make some food...
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